Blast From The Past

This is an old note from Facebook.

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What am I?

I am both my enemy and my friend.
I am both my ally and my foe.
I am both the sparrow in the wind and the eagle up above.
I am both my respite through the rough and the bane through my peace.

I have always hated what I have done and yet I have always loved what I did.
I have always loved my enemies and yet hated my friends.
I have always paid my dues though owed many loans.
I have always been there for myself though it is me that I have always forsaken.

I am the paradox to myself and the conundrum to my conscience.
I am the psychologist and yet also the patient.
I am the most hated thing that I have ever known, yet the most loved.
I am the only thing keeping me alive though I am the only thing wanting me to die.

I am the light through the darkness and the darkness through the light.
I am both my savior from evil and the corrupter from good.
I have always saved myself from problems yet always bring myself into one.
I am both myself though sometimes not my own.

I am who I am, though who I am isn't always me.
I have always been the deliverer yet also always the receiver.
I would give my life to be me, though sometimes I may not.
I am who I am, though who I am may never be the best of me.